Self Sabotage

Not to romanticize 

But it’s hard to appreciate the love behind someone’s eyes

When all you’ve seen is hate

What am i supposed to do 

When loving feels wrong

But being hurt feels so right

Slip into my comforts 

Hide in my own shadows 

The sun scares me

Manipulation is my mundane 

And kindness is my kryptonite 

How am I supposed to be loved

When I only seem to love hate

And only seem to hate love